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08 August 2005 @ 12:00 am
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I have decided to make my journal "Friends Only," There isn't anything really that interesting. I am always looking for interesting people to become friends. If you want me to add you, feel free to ask.
 
 
Paul
07 August 2005 @ 11:07 pm
It's over. It's all over. I was there for the beginning and I was there for the end. I can't believe that was the final episode of "Queer As Folk." I can remember that cold December night when I saw the first episode. I was so excited. Now, here I sit, after witnessing the series finale. I am left with an emptiness. I feel like "Queer As Folk" was a part of who I am. I was just a confused teenager in high school until I saw what it meant to be gay. And it wasn't the sex and drugs. It was the friendship and the love. Seeing how being gay meant you didn't have to be treated like second class citizens. It helped me greatly. I am proud of being gay and no one will ever make me feel differently.

I will miss "Queer As Folk." But, now I have to go out and live my own life. I have to go out and rise to the greatness I am destinied to achieve. I will not be pushed aside. I will rise up. I will rise up and show everyone how great a gay man can be. Remember my words. Remember my name. It will be on everyone's lips, in everyone's mind. I will be great.
 
 
Current Mood: determineddepressed yet enpowered
Current Music: I Will Survive
 
 
Paul
07 August 2005 @ 04:04 pm
Well, ok, I had another weird dream last night. I was in my threater, but it wasn't my threater. It was like a school. We were all working there and there was this guy who was like the boss. It was the guy I saw guest star on Arrested Development months ago. So, he was the boss, but he was more like a dicator. They were all like plotting against him. But, me and Nicole was like tratiors helping him. Then all the other workers starting to riot and Nicole and I warned him and he got away. Then they all started to come towards us. That is all I remember. It was totally weird. Why would I dream that?

Anyway, today all I did was bum around LiveJournal and watch DVDs. Talk about a bitchfest. It seemse like every day the guys in gay boys are getting bitcher and bitcher. It's a lot of fun to read. They get really cunty. I love it. LOL. I always enjoy a good laugh.

Later days.
 
 
Current Mood: amusedamused
 
 
Paul
07 August 2005 @ 01:09 am
Fuck! I am really fucking angry right now. I missed Ali. He was online and IMed me while I was down in the car talking to James. Fuck! Now he is leaving to go to cross-country camp until Friday! I won't be able to talk to him until Friday. That totally sucks. I suppose when I do it will be all the better. And yes, I know what you are all thinking. And the answer is perhaps I am a little bit. I love saying his name. It makes me smile. He is going to be sleeping on the ground. In a sleepbag in a tent probably, but it's the ground. He is too special for that. The last time we talked we were joking about if we were married would I buy him an luxery apartment in Beruit. I wanted to live in a country home on the Bekaa Valley. He asked would I buy him the apartment. What I wanted to say to him was way too...mushy. But, I suppose I will say it now. I would buy him anything his heart desires so I could see his smile. I would give him anything he please to see him happy. I know. Mushy right? I hate it when I get like that. But to see him smile, I might do anything. He is so cute when he smiles. I would post a picture of him smiling, but he would be furious. Plus, he already has pictures of himself in his journal. Friends only, of course. Ok, I am talking about him too much. LOL.

So, I went to see "Wedding Crashers" with James tonight. It was so stupid, but it was funny. Owen Wilson's nose is so fucked. It's like pinched or something. It's really weird looking. Laravis was there. He was the last register open. I fucking love his smile. He can't stop smiling at me. I don't know about him. Is he gay? Is he straight? What the fuck is going on? But, his smile... I can't date him. I can't. He is so not my type. Plus, I am currently in a whole thing in my head with someone else. He needs to stop smiling at me. If he doesn't, I might just start making out with him in the back kitchen. Well, no. That's sort of skanky. Which makes it all the more fun and dangerous. LOL.

Later days.
 
 
Current Mood: okayokay
 
 
Paul
06 August 2005 @ 06:49 pm
Greatness requires suffice. I believe that. I believe the world has no room for little people. It needs people who are willing to do anything... ANYTHING for greatness. But, what am I ready to suffice? Friends? Family? Lovers? I don't know. But, what I do know I will achieve greatness. I made that vow to myself. Am I willing to do anything to achieve greatness? Lets just pray that I am not. Lets just pray that I am not.
 
 
Current Mood: ecstaticambitious
 
 
 
Paul
06 August 2005 @ 06:38 pm
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Paui
Birthday:January 5, 1985
Birthplace:St. Petersburg, FL
Current Location:St. Petersburg, FL
Eye Color:Brown
Hair Color:Black
Height:Six foot
Right Handed or Left Handed:Left handed
Your Heritage:Well, that's tricky
The Shoes You Wore Today:Nikes
Your Weakness:Sour Cream and Onion Potatoes
Your Fears:Cockroachs and death
Your Perfect Pizza:Pepperoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:To Become More Friendly
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:Excuse Me?
Thoughts First Waking Up:I want more sleep!
Your Best Physical Feature:My smile
Your Bedtime:When I pass out
Your Most Missed Memory:Ummm...what?
Pepsi or Coke:Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:Burger King
Single or Group Dates:Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:I don't drink tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:Don't drink coffee
Do you Smoke:No
Do you Swear:Fuck yeah
Do you Sing:Only in the privacy of my own room
Do you Shower Daily:Always
Have you Been in Love:Yes
Do you want to go to College:In college right now
Do you want to get Married:Yep
Do you belive in yourself:Always
Do you get Motion Sickness:No
Do you think you are Attractive:I guess so
Are you a Health Freak:No
Do you get along with your Parents:Only when they do as I say
Do you like Thunderstorms:Yeah
Do you play an Instrument:Yep. Flute and the saxophone
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:No
In the past month have you been on Stage:No
In the past month have you been Dumped:No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:No
Ever been Drunk:Yes
Ever been called a Tease:Yes
Ever been Beaten up:Yes
Ever Shoplifted:No
How do you want to Die:I don't. I am going to live forever on the edge of dreams
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:Cheif Justice of the Supreme Court, baby
What country would you most like to Visit:Italy and Lebanon, thank to someone. You know who you are.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Green
Favourite Hair Color:Brown
Short or Long Hair:Hmm...Not short, not long. But, shagging
Height:Anything over 5" 10"
Weight:Well, not toothpick skinny, but not special store fat.
Best Clothing Style:All depends on the person
Number of Drugs I have taken:Medical or illegal?
Number of CDs I own:Too many too court
Number of Piercings:None...yet
Number of Tattoos:None...yet
Number of things in my Past I Regret:Give me time to think.

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
 
 
Paul
06 August 2005 @ 12:15 pm
HASH(0x8c4f750)
Romance makes you heartbeat. Romance is like the
breath before the plunge, If the plunge was
love that is! Although many dismiss romantics
as stupid little children they are often
intelligent and resourceful. Love to love, love
to live!


What Makes Your Heartbeat?
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7 Types of Intelligence - Which is yours?

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Loner
You love the loners. Guys who seem misunderstood
and lonely just steal your heart away. You
want to reach out your hand to them because you
can see how truly wonderful they could be if
someone would just take the time to care. Some
day your open love will reward you with a
hidden jewel beyond measure.


What Kind of Guy Would You Go For?? (Nice D.N. Angel Pics!)
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YOU ARE A DOWN TO EARTH FLIRT!!!!!!! You definitely
don't use those cheesy pick up lines to get
what you want and you get it by being yourself
and that's what people like about you the most!
When you flirt you just like to keep it simple
and just tell the truth about how you feel
about that person!! You must be really
attractive to the guys/girls.


what kind of flirt are you?
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Paul
06 August 2005 @ 11:35 am
Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...delicious
Your hugs are...warm
Your eyes...sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...heart warming
Your smell is...exotic
Your smile is...hypnotising
Your love is...unique
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Paul
05 August 2005 @ 10:11 pm
Ok. It was an okay day at work. But, something is currently distrubing me. I have an desire to have sex with Laravis. I don't know why. I think it's his smile. He has a very wide smile. I just want him. How sick is that? The fact remains can I have him? I don't know. He gives me mixed signals. Perhaps I will make a move. Perhaps not. I need to prepare first. He isn't going anywhere. Neither am I. So, I will decided what I want to do.

In other news... Well, there is no other news. LOL.

Later days.
 
 
Current Mood: fullfull
 
 
Paul
05 August 2005 @ 07:45 am
Well, the last few days have been uneventful and a tad bit boring. I am hoping the weekend brings some excitiment.

Later days.
 
 
Current Mood: awake